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2011-12-12T17:27:00.000-08:00

Life

Rod Sterling created a Sci-fi TV show called the TwilightZone popular in the early 1970’s and 1980’s this series spawned a Movie and anew series and depicted decisions and choices made in Human life with a sci-fioutcome.

Sci-fi (Science Fiction) became a morbid reality with drugaddiction as cocaine was produced in its most dangerous and addictive form inthe Early 80’s. Crack Cocaine changed lives in hours and destroyed lives indays shattering futures for eternity. A new form of Methamphetamine did theexact same thing in the later 1990’s and now through much of the 2000’s.

A woman can leave her two story farm house for herAdvertising job in the city while driving her BMW down a busy highway and makea Choice and decision stop the car at a crack or meth house and in under sixhours own absolutely nothing vanishing into a world so sick and evil Citypolice cringe when its discussed. The woman will witness things that RodSterling could not yet even imagine. If the woman were to make new choicesbased on previous bad decisions she might at some point escape this nightmareand live long enough to successfully complete a 120 day in-patient program andnever have to use again. But her live will never be the same, she will be permanentlychanged both mentally and physically.

A man making 50K a year with a wife and three children canmake this same decision – Rod Sterling was never prejudice over men or woman,nor is the grip of Drug addiction! Whether straight or gay, male or female,young or old all can become lost to the powerful Science-Fiction life of drugaddiction. There is no reality for many of us once we are lost in it.

There isjust then and now, and now is all we fixate upon. On occasion while in searchof a fix or bling we might reflect back but it’s always whipped out by therehere and now as we scrape a pipe once more or lick a bag, search the carpet andwander aimlessly looking for a connect.

Baffling even more is what it was that made us dropeverything and never use again – having the addiction and uncontrollable cravejerked out of us and our bodies thrown from that realm and world back to thisone, the normal one. Many of the stories I have heard as well as my own are soScience fiction that it makes writers and Sci-fi authors twist their heads in disbeliefand horror as well as utter amazement.

By decisions I have made both positive and negative andchoices I made good and bad I walked to where I am now and while I may have topay the consequence of a bad choice for life I am able to appreciate life as Iknow it today. For through all the wreckage and destruction, I am reborn andable to make new decisions and choices. Life is like this for everyone not justaddicted and recovering. Life is a series of death’s and re-births as the bodyand mind grow and grow wiser. Unfortunately some of us die along the way andnever get to see the dimension we who survived walked through – Of course welost out on seeing theirs also. Maybe they are still walking beside us but thatwe made a different decision which placed us on separate roads. A paralleluniverse if you will.

So I have made some bad choices and will pay for them forlife, I also made some good ones and have the ability to show these to othersso they might not make the choice I made and live a life of sadness. I am aleader and a follower – If I cross a road full of busy traffic first I can goback and show others how to cross safely also. And as I journey forward Ilisten to people who have crossed other roads similar and survived.

We are leaders and followers in Recovery, in business andsocial environments and in life. We are being helped by those who have walkedbefore us and we are helping those who are walking behind us and were allwinners when we complete the race, each and every one of us with the help ofall!

Could we have looked at God for all of this and saved thetime and trouble? I don’t think so, I believe for us to find God we have towalk through the depths of hell only in doing so will we know who God is andwhat life is about.

Of course this is coming from someone who ran to help afriend in need came home and yelled at the dogs, took a few Tylenol PM’sflipped on a Russian Techno station playing progressive Trance and typed thiswhile black mascara tears slid down cheeks as she reflected back to a life oncelived that someone else has now chosen that’s close to her.

I can’t say what I really want to do right now becauseSocial media sites have cracked down on those things so I will sit back in thedark and cry for this person while listening to the Trance and watching theghosts in my head dance away!

I know we all loose things in recovery sometimes and many of us get them or better back. But this friend I really hated to see chose to loose with meth. I can only pray it leaves enough of her when its done with her.

2011-12-11T13:11:00.001-08:00

Hello everyone, Yes this is much better than blogging on Facebook. I was blogging on Facebook today and I realized Facebook just isn't designed for blogging. Its designed for Short, quick Social posts not for 50,000 word count deals. hell I'd have to stop every other paragraph and let the text catch up to me. I realized then I just need to create a blog and be done with it. So I did and here I am and here you are too.

I love to write, blogger will help me do this better. So welcome to my blog page on Blogger. I hope you register yourself but if you don't its cool too. I plan to use this for those long posts that FB just can't deal with. So click the music box and have a good time while your visiting.

Thanks - ST

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